Why am I sad?
To be honest I have no idea.............
Well exact idea. I'm tired of the small things. The small thing of a teacher you looked up to one minuet in a blink of an eye crash your whole view of someone you once held high. Or maybe it's a small thing of not being able to finish a math test because your too slow (Is speed is more important then checking your work?) Or maybe it's hiding a relationship that I can't show the world. Or maybe it's a small thing having the chance to do something you really wanted to do that could teach you something but instead of that two people get to redo it for a second time. Or maybe something small like wanting a college sooooo bad that you cover all your walls with and you wished for it all of your life but you can't because it's your fault. Or it's a small thing getting called a slacker because this year you have headaches where you can't see sometimes let alone think. Or maybe it's your princiPAL scheduling a meeting and never actually talking to you. Or maybe it's a small thing not being able to think straight because you work till 11 some nights so you can pay for your own food instead of borrowing money from your parents. Or maybe it's a small thing to keep everyone else happy and safe instead of yourself. Or maybe it's a small thing trying to find money for Christmas the way you want it. Or maybe it's trying to deal with your bitchy self. Or something small like saying I'm fine when asked are you ok or how are you when it is a question nobody except those close to you actually care about. All these small things and others are just small things through others eyes they only see one or two and I'm a complainer for being sad over small things but there isn't just one or two there are a lot of things small things but there is power in numbers. So think if you hear something small from someone it could be a small of a whole. And that is why I can't tell people why I'm sad it's just too much
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