My Two Sides

Looking at me right this moment i see two sides one who is loosing a battle with none other than himself and two somebody so accomplished and proud for his age and position. He is losing the battle because he considers himself a loser and not worth it. Also his stress levels rise daily from bad orch auditions to school work garage work football games studying helping Church and sleeping. He feels like he is losing friends daily just because his energy is no longer able to peruse through the tiredness and ache. On the bright Side he sees himself as a member of a select group of future leaders. He sees himself gain knowledge and staying positive about his downs. He also see himself crashing. Plummeting to his defeat. He is me. And I me.